iiiiiiii'm back!

wow so i guess i've been m.i.a. for many months?! i feel like i've been m.i.a. from everything. it's been horrible. to sum it up... nothing really has happened honestly in the last few months. yes, it's been a great couple of months. i've made lots of new and blooming friendships. i've gotten more settled in and adjusted here in this city. i've been able to make many memories.
and yes, it's been a craaaazy couple of months. with no room to breathe. i feel like every homework has been accomplished right before the deadline. i am normally not like that, because that stresses me out. i cannot remember the last time i had a free day all to myself and just be BOREDDD. is that so much to ask for, to be bored?! ha. just kidding. i'm glad i've been keeping myself busy. between becoming a workaholic and seventeen units, it's been hard. but i am so glad that's finally over. i quit my job on saturday. i'm so happy i will finally have more time. it was not good for my spiritual walk to have to work all the time and not be able to go to church.
and four more weeks of community college and i'm done! ahhh. finally done with it. i am 99 percent sure that i will be attending cbu in the fall. it'll be fab! i'll be updating this a lot more, pinnnnky promise.
xoxo,

kathlena

THANKFULNESS.

I am so thankful for everything ! Life has been pretty a-okay. . .Well that would be an understatement minus the fact that I'm sick and don't feel very good ):

This week we went over to the cousins on Wednesday and got together enjoying a Brazillian thanksgiving. That was really tasty and yummy. We had some pretty huge pieces of meat on kabobs! I'll post pictures once I upload em onto the computer. Too tired right now.

We also went to enjoy a normal thanksgiving dinner yesterday. So DEFINITELY had my fill of turkey (: I am proud of myself for not binging like I normally do! ( Well not literally, BUT I do know how to push my limits! )

Today I worked my FIRST Black Friday. I got to the mall when it was still dark...at 4:00 am ! It was crazy. There were already cars there, and on my walk from the car to the mall entrance I frozeee. It was way cold. I felt crazy sick the whole time. But I'm so glad that it's only once a year :P I'm sleepy now so I guess I'll go to not think. (:

UPDATES:
(excuse the caps in this post, please.)

1. I GOT A JOB !
I got a job at the mall.










More specifically :

Yep (:

I am super happy and thankful that God gave me a job. I had basically given up hope and this happened all so fast. Basically the day after the interview I went in to work for 7.5 hours !

2. I don't really have any other update for you. Sorry. But I'll tell you exactly what I'm trying to stuff into my brain for my quiz on Thursday--

Sahelanthropos chadensis, orrorin tugenesis, ardipethecus kadabba, ardipithecus ramidus, australopithecus anamensis, australopithecus afarensis, australopithecus africanus, australopithecus garhi, australopithecus aethiopicus, australopithecus boisei, australopithecus robustus.
) :

<3

(:

HALLOWEEN was so much fun ! I wasn't with friends, but I had a blast with my family at the church being a little kid again. I was making up for all those years that I never had that..like..my whole life I guess? I played all the little kid carnival games, chowed down free hot dogs, popcorn, drinks, and COTTON CANDY (blueberry, the best I've ever tasted I might add). Then I got a bunch of free candy and ate it. Mostly the chocolate. AND THENNN I got on this kiddy ride with my brother and it was so ghetto that it spun around by a machine, but there was a guy there who spun our individual carts to like make us spin around. Anyways, he seemed to make it his personal goal to spin ONLY our cart every single freaking time it came around. Basically, for five minutes everything was spinning around me so fast it was all a blur. Afterward, I felt like I was going to hurl. TMI? Yep. So I didn't dress up this year, which means I can save my tinkerbell outfit for next year I guess. And to complete it, I found wings for $2.50 today ! Gotta love day-after-Halloween sales.

I had a nice a restful weekend. Except ironically, I am exhausted right now ! All thanks to my wonderful friend from high school who i HAVE to talk to on the phone everyone once in awhile (ha just kidding). But once we start talking we can't stop. And I absolutely hate talking on the phone. Except with her. We spent two hours last night catching up on each other lives and reminiscing. We stayed up wayyy past my bedtime. I'm such a granny, ha. I actually caught up with quite a few of my friends from high school this weekend, which was unexpected and nice.

Anyways, this weekend started out right! I got an e-mail saying that Forever21 has free shipping for the weekend so I went crazy trying to find stuff I liked. So did a million other girls, I guess. Then, I ordered and my order got canceled because I put a wrong billing addy. LAME because basically everything I wanted was snatched up and I couldn't reorder it. Oh well...saves me money I guess ha ha. I got a cute dress though ! Well..the picture was cute. Hopefully it will be cute in person too.

I am absolutely LOVING this weather. So ready for a San Diego weekend. Next weekend perhaps? It should still be nice and warm, according to weather.com !
All that's left on the agenda for tonight is to read "Love Your God With All Your Mind," one of my books for Bible class that I never read. Woops. I'm making it right now by reading it I GUESS.

peace&&love <3

So it's finally Thursday. This has been such a long and stressful week. Two exams, one which seemed impossible-- but I got through it. Last night was longggg as I was trying to finish up my application to CSUSM as well as study for the big Anthro exam I had today. It was ridiculous things that I had to know, like basically every type of old world monkey, new world monkey, ape, prosimians, and humans, and describing their locomotor pattern and society. Among about twenty other pages of things to know. I really don't like it when I'm stressed. I really am not the best person when I am.

I also did go to that college group on Tuesday like I said I would. Everyone was really nice, and I had fun just playing card games and eating..of course. Ha ha. Me and food.  I met a few people that go to CSUSM and it really doesn't seem like that bad of an option now.

This Saturday for Halloween I'll be volunteering at my new church so that should be fun. I love carnival-type things. And kids are cool too...most of the time ! I'll probably go around and eat lots of free food and candy before I start my shift though. I think it's only for an hour. 

Anyways, I'm at the library... and I should be working on my Macro.

peace&&love.

Today I walked into class and expected to take my Psych exam. Little did I know that the little old man/prof who was packing up his things would accidentally pack it up with him. So the test got moved to Wednesday. I feel like several of the profs put zero effort into their classes. The powerpoints are even from the company that makes the book. Regardless, I've still been putting as much, if not more, time and effort into it as I did at Biola.

It's been hard lately. Not knowing anyone in the whole city is tough. When I first moved here I tried out so many college groups, which were more like college services. Those were okay, but too big and not a way to meet new people. I faced my fear and checked out a small group. The people were so nice, but were all married and in their late 20's. Not exactly where I would feel the most comfortable. I guess after that I got scared off and have just been not brave enough to check out another one. However, I guess I'll be sucking it up and checking out another one tomorrow. Hopefully it's good. It's game night and make-your-own pizza night, so I'm hoping it'll be chill and I'll be able to meet some people there.

I need to spend more time in devotions. It always gets pushed back to the last thing at night, even though I have plenty of time during the day. By that time, I'm just ready to crash, so I read one of my favorite verses that I post-it'd up on the wall next to my bed quickly and go to sleep. I really need to change that bad habit. Today I had to spend about two hours trying to find out the different genus and species for various characteristics of primates for anthropology, including the leaf-eaters, those with prehensile tails, live in monogamous pair bonds...etc. They try so hard to be convincing as to all the evidence that is provided for our existence and evolution.
It makes me sick-- which is why I need some down time with Him even more.

Wish me luck for tomorrow.  Hopefully there'll be people my age. Ha ha. It's 18-25 so...I'm praying I'm not the youngest.

<3

change.

It's funny how much time changes things. I've been really thinking about how much I have changed since moving back here to California in a mere year and a half. It interests me that there are both so many good and bad things that I have noticed different about myself.

I guess I can start off with the good stuff. I've grown up, period. This involves getting on track with my spiritual walk as well as priorities in my life. Things that used to interest me has totally been flipped around, and I know that it's all God. I've also learned to love exactly who God has made me.

Now to the ugly part. Ha ha. I guess I had a lot of emotions before about everything. I wouldn't call myself an emotional person, because I definitely wasn't one of those people that cried about everything or anything crazy like that. But I definitely did care about others a lot, maybe too much. Growing up and moving around everywhere definitely made me become that way after the countless good-byes that I would have to say. I can't really decide if this change is good or bad, as I have now discovered for the first time in my life, that my emotions have hardened and I really am not wishing that I am anywhere else. I don't overwhelming-ly miss somebody. This may sound crazy, but I am just so used to saying good-bye to people I love and missing them, but now I am completely happy exactly where I am. So I guess that's not a bad thing. I'm actually glad that I am truly genuinely happy, because my circumstances haven't been the best lately. Even though it's been hard starting at a new school, not knowing anyone, and my college life being shifted from extremely social to I guess you could call it the "average community college life," I've learned to be fine with it. God has it all under control. And I know that patience is produced through trials and suffering. He's preparing me for something greater, this is just the stepping stone. Honestly, I don't even care where I end up going to college next year. It used to mean the world to me, but if I'm not back at Biola, I'm pretty sure I'll be just fine. It's crazy how life has been so busy busy go go for the past two years..and now it's slow and I'm just trying to get a job to fill my time. Even though life isn't crazy packed..I somehow barely spend time with God.

A verse here and there is all I do. I need to dig deeper into it. All I really want right now is to meet good Christian friends who can encourage me in my walk and I can go to college group with. All the college groups I've tried out have been a flop or impersonal, and now I'm just sick of looking. I've found a good church that me and my whole family like, so that's been good.

This is just my ramblings at 1am. But I think it helps to just put some of my thoughts onto paper... or the comp.